For the next few weeks, I shall be sharing excerpts from my personal journal. These excerpts are yearend reflections: the lessons I learned and the realizations that came to me during the last quarter of 2020.
October was intense. What a wild month. The moon cycle was off with mercury in retrograde. I don’t even really, truly know what that means yet, but I definitely felt it. As much as I tried to ignore it, it played a big part in everyone’s life.
There is turmoil inside of me. Sometimes, I would wake up in tears. Sometimes, my eyes would water while watching a movie. Even watching the cutest cartoons and kid shows with my children would trigger some waterworks.
I don’t know why I’d have these deep dives of loss. When I feel lost, I ask myself why I am feeling this way. I ask myself: Am I still on purpose? Does my calling still hold true? Do I need to look at different angles or paths to take with my vision? Do I need to restart my mission to feed souls with food, culture, and travel, and explore different paths?
A time for reevaluation
But I have come to learn something new about myself this time around. One of the lessons I’ll share is that it’s okay to feel this way, to feel a sense of loss and self-doubt, as much as it hurts my soul. It’s a good time for reevaluation and cleansing—letting go of what was, reviewing what is and accepting it, and of course, correcting or reprogramming your thinking so you can attract what you want to attract.
Reprogramming your thinking to attract what you want to attract is something I learned through a training in August through September with Suzy Batiz and her ALIVE OS course. The course taught me some new terminology on the way I live and operate my life, as well as some basic ways to reprogram my mind and start living a life of abundance.
I have come to the realization that the lessons and courses I have taken in 2020 are for a bigger purpose. I will be living and learning and applying these lessons for a few years. And I plan to share them with you, my tribe. I hope you’ll share in my journey while I am on it, as well as in my own true findings of how to navigate this process and live its outcome.
Life is not a destination. It’s a journey, and we must not forget that. It never ends till your life ends.
Stay tuned for the next part of my yearend reflections.